The Lone Wanderer

I walked alone.Through the shadows that the tall buildings cast,like giants watching over the once vivid and song-full city,but now just as a reminder of some past times,they stand tall,relics of an ancient order,such as i am myself.Those buildings and the entire world which surrounded me,felt new,yet familiar. I couldn’t feel a cold breeze on…

THE CLIMB

You stand in a bottomless pit. Turning around seeing nothing but darkness. You can hear voices above and a shiver of light. But below only weeps and cry of the misfortunate souls that are condemned with you. You stand up, grab onto the wall and start your climb… As you climb you can see the…

Self worth and what when its low

How do we value a human life? Do we value it on the basis of good or bad deeds am individual does? Or is it maybe our skills and talents thay can contribute to society? The truth is in today’s day and age we base human worth on our appearance, papers that tell what schools…

Relationship in depression

Those two are very delicate things, combined you can see them as a match and fuel.One simple mistake all can go boom.And even that single thought gets you the chills,the fear itself gets around knowing,how you are hurt already,and opening to another human being can cut you even more…And you feel like how can anything…

Its been a some time…

I am back.Its been some time,what a month or so,maybe even more.Last time i wrote i was so hurt,feeling the sweet venom of distrust towards myself,which made some old thoughts and dark desires to come forward from that pit i locked them up so long ago.I felt before that i made a progress,from the time…

Probably goodbye

I think this will be my last blog.I havent written in days.The thing is i have fallen again.My gf lives in UK now,and me in my godforsaken country.We aint that far,just a 3 hour flight away.But few days ago i got another mail where they deny me a job.And this dance of denial is been…

One month of blogging

Its been a month already.I started back when i was in England visiting my gf,just after New Years,and i felt some terrible weight on my heart,something i needed to get off my chest,that i couldn’t even tell her.As a New Years resolution i wanted to vent out,not to hold all these thoughts in myself,afraid it…

The Quest for purpose

Is it just me or do any of you feel like waking each and every single day,and you get your morning routine,you shower,brush your teeth,get some breakfast and that sweet,sweet coffee,and you go throughout your day with the various task you need to preform,and you just pause for a second and think,what for?What the fuck…

If love was a person…

Is love optional? Is it something we need in life, like a barren necessity that prolongs our life? Or just something that if not chosen carefully can be our downfall? Better to know love… I think its inevitable. To fall in love, to fall for someone. That pain is just something everyone needs to go…

The sound of happiness

They say getting your mind of of things is good. But it’s hard and gets harder by time to find things to occupy your mind, so you don’t think about the grim face of reality. Yrs i know writing a blog about it its definitely not a way to not think about depression, but you…